Prodigal Son

     There are times in my life when I feel so close to Christ it's as if I can reach out and touch Him.  It is an incredible feeling when you feel His presence.  Conversely, there are times in my life when I allow the carnal man in me to take control.  Then, I feel so far from Him that I actually feel lost.  I go through much of my day feeling empty.  Feeling like I am just going through the motions in every aspect of my life.

     In the midst of all of my mess, in the midst of all of my sins, before  I am too far gone,  I can somehow hear His voice. I can feel my spirit fill with joy.  Softly and without condemnation,  He calls me.  He forgives me.  He reminds me how much He suffered for me, not to fill me with guilt, but to let me know that after all He did to reconcile me,  He would never give up on me.  He would never stop loving me.  And if He had to, He would go to the cross all over again. For me..... For me..... For me.  Seems as if during these times, He pours out more of His love. "Love covers a multitude of sins." His love covers all of my sins.  Sometimes I too wonder, "Who am I, Lord, that thou art mindful of me"?  Who am I that I have found favor in You? 

Luke 15:11-32 (King James Version) ¹¹And he said, A certain man had two sons: ¹²And the younger of them said to his father, Father, give me the portion of goods that falleth to me. And he divided unto them his living.¹³And not many days after the younger son gathered all together, and took his journey into a far country, and there wasted his substance with riotous living.¹⁴And when he had spent all, there arose a mighty famine in that land; and he began to be in want.¹⁵And he went and joined himself to a citizen of that country; and he sent him into his fields to feed swine.¹⁶And he would fain have filled his belly with the husks that the swine did eat: and no man gave unto him.¹⁷And when he came to himself, he said, How many hired servants of my father's have bread enough and to spare, and I perish with hunger!¹⁸I will arise and go to my father, and will say unto him, Father, I have sinned against heaven, and before thee,¹⁹And am no more worthy to be called thy son: make me as one of thy hired servants.²⁰And he arose, and came to his father. But when he was yet a great way off, his father saw him, and had compassion, and ran, and fell on his neck, and kissed him.²¹And the son said unto him, Father, I have sinned against heaven, and in thy sight, and am no more worthy to be called thy son.²²But the father said to his servants, Bring forth the best robe, and put it on him; and put a ring on his hand, and shoes on his feet:²³And bring hither the fatted calf, and kill it; and let us eat, and be merry:²⁴For this my son was dead, and is alive again; he was lost, and is found. And they began to be merry.²⁵Now his elder son was in the field: and as he came and drew nigh to the house, he heard musick and dancing.²⁶And he called one of the servants, and asked what these things meant.²⁷And he said unto him, Thy brother is come; and thy father hath killed the fatted calf, because he hath received him safe and sound.²⁸And he was angry, and would not go in: therefore came his father out, and intreated him.²⁹And he answering said to his father, Lo, these many years do I serve thee, neither transgressed I at any time thy commandment: and yet thou never gavest me a kid, that I might make merry with my friends:³⁰But as soon as this thy son was come, which hath devoured thy living with harlots, thou hast killed for him the fatted calf.³¹And he said unto him, Son, thou art ever with me, and all that I have is thine.³²It was meet that we should make merry, and be glad: for this thy brother was dead, and is alive again; and was lost, and is found.