After my first post I felt a sense of accomplishment.  The day after, I was anxious to write more.  My mind was flooded with ideas, so many that I struggled to keep up with them.  When I was finally able, I sat at my computer and........nothing.  My mind is always racing with various, but at that moment it went blank.  I do not consider myself a writer, so it couldn't be writer's block.  Besides, earlier I had more thoughts than I could count.  I felt I needed to step back, to take a minute to gather myself and figure out just what was happening.
     I began all of this, feeling as if this was something that God wanted me to do. I suddenly found myself questioning my own motives. Was I moving ahead without finding out from God if this is something that He planned for me?  There are times when we call ourselves "doing something for God", yet not doing it with God. Jesus told his disciples "Apart from Me you can do nothing". What were my true motives?  Was I doing this to satisfy self?  Doing the right thing for the wrong reason isn't much different than doing the wrong thing for what you feel is the right reason.  There is wrong in either of them. So there I sat, lost. Not really knowing why I was doing this blog thing.  I had to ask God to help me to see myself, to see my motives.  More than anything I felt I needed to apologize to Him for moving ahead without Him.
     For the record,  I never wish to paint myself as anything other than someone trying to find his way.  I am as flawed and as messed up as the next person.  For every mistake I make, God is there to show me  and to teach me.  I pray that as I continue to grow that I may be able to show and teach someone else who may be walking down some of the same paths that I walk.  Just as Christ reaches out to me, I have a responsibility to reach out to others. Whenever I write, whatever I write, is meant to uplift everyone that reads it.  I am passionate about the things I write and I pray that everything  I write is from His inspiration.
 Oh, and by the way, I do not proofread what I write. I hardly ever like what I write when I read it for myself.  Thoughts????